Chronicles of an Unemployed Graduate

Typing this on Thursday, 28th of June 2018 at 8:15 am while functioning on very low energy, but not low enough to fall into sleep apparently…

It has officially been a month since I finished my bachelor degree, and I thought it was about time I gave you a quick update on where I stand in life right now: an unemployed fresh graduate who is undecided about whether to have a full time job or just enjoy this summer vacation while it exists. It’s so frustrating how one minute I’m like “Yes girl, make use of your time. You’re young and independent so go follow your passion and feed the fire in you.” and the next minute I’m like “You’ve worked so hard for the past five years so you give yourself a well-deserved break before you get into the wheel of a full time job and take full on responsibilities that your life will literally depend on.”

Some people will see this frustration as silly and immature and probably label me as someone who is lost in life. And others (a minority) will see this as a completely normal phase that almost every fresh graduate goes through even if there is a plan in mind. I’ve received both kinds of comments and to be completely honest, it is not nice when people start pointing fingers at you when you’ve just hatched out of the egg (education) into the real world (adult life). The comments have gotten to me, they’ve broken me down and they just leave a scar. However, how you act from that point onward is what is most important.

I’ve cracked under the pressure of pleasing the community and I was going to follow the norm for the path that is already paved for me (Pharmacy). I’ve went in for an interview and the first question I was asked was: Do you love your major? The obvious answer that I know by heart is “no”, but I just wanted to be at my best form for the sake of the interview and not wasting an opportunity… and at the same time I didn’t wanna lie so my answer was very neutral. I was hiding the truth by talking about other truths that don’t directly answer the questions being asked, if that makes any sense. I think it was one of the worst interviews I’ve ever been to even though it wasn’t really that bad. The whole thing just didn’t feel right, like I wasn’t being true to myself and I hated it. I went into the interview with a heavy heart and a big lump in my throat, but I left so relieved that I was just done with it. And the lesson learned was to not let people’s thoughts get into my head, stick to my plan if I truly believe in it and be stubborn about my goal.

At the moment, I still can’t decide if I want to work or just chill but I’m applying for jobs and hoping to land a good one. So for now, I spend most of my time in bed at home either sleeping, watching Love Island because drama entertains me, or being a drama queen over twitter just because why not. I’m enjoying this “unemployment” phase so much that the worst part is I don’t know when it will exactly end… so I’m making the most of it while I can.